This world is Chaos

This nurse is too nice. I had a breakdown Infront of her saying I was scared and hurting. That I didn’t want to do this anymore. She listened and comforted me. I really needed that.

I really freakin’ hate this surgeon. he is lazy. He knows I’m a nice person so it is easy to push me around. He said I will have my surgery Friday. If he changes it again, he is going to lose me as a patient. He is an asshole, man. He was like “well I’m getting tired and if I do your surgery this late I won’t be able to do any surgeries tomorrow so I would cancel 4 people’s operations.” he was guilt tripping me. If he doesn’t want to do the fuckin surgeru, then he doesn’t have to. Also, he keeps contradicorate a lot of the things he has said

I SHOULD be going back for surgery within the next hour. honestly, I’m scared. I hope they can get most of it out. I gotta be okay for my babies (animals) and for my family that are going to be waiting for me. akdfjalkdfj I’m scared so bad…. wish me luck everyone! 

Fo sho. 

I just need a reminder every once in a while. I have that reminder every time I look at my reflection and see my chest piece 

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Thank you doctor for finally setting it up to where I can give myself pain medicine every 15 minutes. I don’t feel pain anymore, along with my face. Cheaaaa